Apprehensive about the trip?? PHS-pre-holiday syndrome

Yap...Dad just pop in to ask if I am excited about my upcoming dive expedition to Manado....Actually told him that I'm not as excited as I felt a few weeks ago....
In fact I was a bit apprehensive....
well, it's always been the case...for some strange reason, I'd always feel afraid and restless a few days prior to my trip...maybe I'm too homely....however there were exceptions....it depends on whom I'm going with...

Think I'm gonna be alone most of the time for this trip...gotta spare a thought for my couple friends whom I'm tagging along as the gooseberry...well, both of them are my good buddies...but they are too loveydovey to even take note of the bright bulb..oh well..:)

My gastric's not feeling too well lately, ever since the day I fainted...I've been feeling nausea and appetite is going down...However, I've been forcing myself to finish my meals to give me energy....

I wasn't really being myself for spending more time at home these days...especially this weekend...turned down 2 dinner appointments just to rest at home...But I kinda enjoy it...Really hate crowds..coz they make me giddy...

My body's failing me again...was on my way to work today and felt an acute pain in my right knee joint....*sigh* signs of aging....

The blue day will arrive in a few hours time...feeling more blue than ever because I've been resting too long at home...errm..actually no lah...been to work this 2 mornings...
But just not in the mood to work these day...getting slacker and slacker...just feel like dumping my work aside and go...but I can't...gotta explain and allocate my work to my colleagues and to rush as many things as possible within these 2 days ( cos I'm flying off on wed ) so that they don't have to cover too much of my work....

Rose is still in NUH...think she wont be back till weeks...AL will be flying off to NZ soon too...we are gonna be short-handed on top of my absence..poor Jean...

Called Qi just now...she was very upset cos her Godpa fell and hit his head...internal bleeding and got into a coma....he's going through an operation at this point of time and the chances are only 20-30%....I pray for him....

Alright....time to continue packing....