Trust betrayed...eventually led to fainting

I just found out yesterday that someone I was close to betrayed my trust.....Lies, lies and more lies...to think that I had been so frank and nice....what I got back was just a pack of lies... How would u expect me to trust people again??? Do I look like a fool?

Was so depressed today and took 2 days of mc...went to the doctor and he probed me into telling him everything. Told him was too stressed up by work but he feels that work-related stress doesn't really contributes to depression usually. He was right, it was some other matters. No matter how stressed or busy my work is, it never makes me depressed....at the most, frustration. Gave me relaxant and Zoloft; he said the latter might make me happier and more positive....and more refreshed at work. I wonder how it does magic.... cant wait to try...maybe i'll get high...hehe

Was very tired and slept when i came home...mum din cook cos i told her i'm on half-day off in the morning...so she expected me to buy lunch to work. Yes, din want them to know that I'm on MC due to depression..otherwise they'd get worried.

I had no appetite for lunch so went out with an empty stomach to meet a friend for blood donation. He's a frequent blood donor so i approach him since i've been wanting to donate blood a long time back..

But he was late, so I went to the nearest bakery and grab some bread before the donation. The donation went on without any pain...it was much faster than I thought and the nurses there are all very friendly and hospitable. But the needle was damn big! Bigger than the biggest I've seen at work...16G! But it pierce into my flesh without any pain at all. The whole process took about 10 mins and we went out for refreshments....the bandage was really cool with this Mr. Smiley face on it :) and it's bright orange!

We decided to take a train to bishan to have dinner. But i felt nausea before entering the station, so i rested a while. Took the train and felt really stuffy again, so got off after 2 stops and rested again...

Reached bishan, bought some plums to curb my nausea and went to coffee bean to chill out. I couldn't take tea nor coffee on empty stomach so i keep popping plums down my throat cos it makes me feel better.

Went to the ATM to transfer some money while he walked around...the lady in front of the queue was really slow and I began to feel like vomitting again...controlled myself and completed the transaction...

As I was pacing up to go to the toilet, I realised that my vision grew dark....I stumbled and fainted before I knew....The next moment, I heard voices, I couldn't open my eyes....but I heard this lady who keeps saying "OMG" and someone rubbing medicated oil on my nose and my sides....The vision recovered slowly and I saw this lady picking up my phone....I forced myself up and told her not to call....my parents shouldn't know....so i woke up and told them I was fine...even though I wasn't...I called my friend and told him to come. They helped me to a chair and i rested...

The security was informed and I was brought to their room where they offered me warm water....I wanted to go to the ladies...still...because my tummy was aching even when I passed out. The female security accompanied me in the toilet and waited for me for almost half-an-hour outside my cubicle...It took me alot of strength to finish that business and all this while I feel that I'm gonna pass out anytime...Then I vomitted all the plums that had been churning in my stomach....

I've learnt something amazing today....that a person's willpower and determination can really prolong his/her life....
Though I wasn't at the verge of death today..but I really felt the need to go to the hospital while I was lying in the middle of the shopping mall. I didn't want to get up because I was too tired and weak...and even broke out in cold sweat.... But I know that if I were to end up in the hospital, things are gonna blow up. So I forced myself to wake up.

My first instance of passing out was at home near my sink....I blackout and my dad grabbed me just in time before i fell...and the moment he does that, i told myself to wake up...and it doesn't take more than a minute to do so....but i gave them more than an hour of fright...keke

My friend was like, " I wouldn't dare to bring you to the next donation you know? "
haha...but i still dun believe that I'm that weak....i'll make sure i go on a full stomach on the next appointment.:)