Life's Choices

I recall the days when I was still in GM, a pastor came down to preach during Chapel period. He talked about life's choices. Now it came back to me full of significant and depths. Life is definitely full of choices. The path you took in the past determines your present and the way you chose to live life today will affect your future.

For years I tried to stay on the right path....trying to be a good daughter, friend, girlfriend, student, worker.Till i strayed to the edge of the path....friends tried to bring me back but I strayed again...The journey may not lead to my ultimate destination, it might have been tough, but it brought me happiness that I've never experienced in my past 20 odd years of my life. To choose between what was "right" and what I feel brought me happiness was a tough decision to make.

In 2005, I've encountered many struggles...internal struggles between my "angel" and my "devil". Many times, I felt like a drug addict...how they go thru "cold turkey" treatment, and how they fight with their will to stay away from drugs.

That was the path I chose to take. There's no turning back...yet it's a good thing that it happen only once...

Now, I'm waiting to be chosen....Knowing that chances are equivalent to zero, I'm still required to wait for the sentence to be passed. I'm like a convict, waiting for judgement day.

When rough times like these sweep by, I'd think of my childhood, where I'd sing the songs that I've learnt to grandma at night after coming back from my kindergarten. She enjoys listening to me and would smile whenever she mentioned those days to me....I wished i'd still be a child...Innocent and carefree...If only I can seek solace again in her arms like a child.

Think twice before making a choice....Life is a gamble. Love is, too.