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Life is beautiful to me... But beautiful things do not last long. This makes me cherish my family, friends and love even more. My heart beats with all the life around. To live with Passion and live life to the fullest- that's me.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Pig reflection


*sigh*..time to do self reflection again....this usually takes place when i find that the whole world finds me disagreeable.
A close colleague of mine is leaving soon...we used to be quite close...but we've drifted apart...She always tell people that I'm her "daughter"...because she found that we share similar traits. However, I'd been too occupied with work these months that I hardly get to interact with her. As a result, she seemed to get closer to 2 other colleagues. Many a time, I wanted to spend some time talking to her....but whenever I manage to find time to rest a while, she's knock off.
I'm upset with her because she did not give me an answer whether she'll be at working on her last day as she has taken a few days off prior to that. I understand her reason was to not get too attached to the few of us who's been working with her for quite a while. But rationally speaking, she should at least let us be prepared so that we can re-allocate our duties in her absence.
With one man down, I can foresee the hectic schedule coming ahead...Was kinda worried that it's gonna be really busy and my problem will rise again...My body no longer allows me to work as aggressively as in the past. Did mention my worries to a fellow colleague...but she keep saying that I "worry too much" and been too "stressed out".... I didn't feel good about her comments because
I'm seldom stressed by work....I admit that I'm tired physically, but I'm still mentally relaxed....My main worry is my hip more than anything else because the ache was just unbearable, especially when I'm seated...
So we had a long sms debate over this. Just feel that she doesn't really understand..reason being...she's a little laid-back...not lazy..but she takes things in her stride...and she's not too bothered about how others feel...she's the "slow and steady" type...
As for me, I'm more aggressive, result-orientated and too bothered by people..the "time is money" type....
I seek perfection and set high expectations for myself...even higher than those that ppl set for me.... In a way...that's kinda stupid,
cos I often get disppointments...but i find it hard to change...that's just me...
Talking about disappointment.... was disappointed when a friend made me expect a call but didn't call in the end....it was nothing important..and it was a trivial matter...but I just don't like it when people say things they don't mean, no matter how small the issue is....when u promise something, try to keep it...when u say something, try to do it. I know someone who keeps every word he says...strictly....and he earns a bit of my respect.
So...have these people really stepped on my feet? Or am I too serious, petty, narrow-minded...I just can't help taking people's word too seriously....
Ought to be thankful that my friends accepted me for who I am...Why am I still expecting so much from them?

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